This is my beginning... This is me!!

So some dreams come true and then when they fade you think to yourself wow was I blind to dream about that.  I've had a lot of those in my life and they all centered on other people. While its great to live to help others and I will continue to or God will take me home faster.  I have found in the last little while that your whole life cant revolve around 1 person or you'll get burned.

I have 4 great kids who have not gotten from their mom what they deserve.. I have a great body that God has given me to use and it also has not gotten the attention it deserves.  From this day going forward my dreams are for my kids and myself.  We will make it in this world with our heads held high and know that I've done everything I can to make it so.

I need to do some inner searching but plans right now are to kick things on the high track.  I was getting up at 4am to go see a man who is no longer in my life so that time can be used for me.  The fitness room will be awake between 4 and 5am as I think the people downstairs wouldn't appreciate INSANITY on their heads at that time. Then this is where I need to figure out and put in some structure... is it P90X, Insanity, ChaLean or just plain lifting and sheer power after that.  I want to grow these muscles and be the biggest leanest me I can be. I have the knowledge, the tools and the strength in my body to do it.  I just need to keep my brain in the backseat and get out of my own head and do it.  Our brains to often hold us back but I can't let that happen anymore.

I have great tools in my hands to grow a great business.  I have a company that stands behind and that there are thousands of testimonials to prove their products are superior I myself have lost 76lbs and will be many more using the programs.  Why am I not sharing with others...


My coach said it best this morning... "you are at your best when single" and know what Dave you are totally right.. so single it is!!!! and with your help and the help of others around me I will be at my best. But know it has to start here... with me... with who I am.. Simple, Smartass, Silly girl and going forward I will always be who I've been "Just ME" and me is a good people to be.   

Now one other thing I need to find is someone to help me figure out this blogging thing.. would love to have added a picture here but ummm can't figure it out LOL  Also I have to remember how to get back to this blog so I can add to it LOL yeah not that computer friendly this girl but I can become anything I want to :o)

Hugs to everyone who has stood beside me through three years of BS and hugs to my family who has dealth with Many years of my BS.. Mom I love you more than you know and always will thank you for being supportive no matter what my issues were.